wow so i havnt used this in a good 3 months...my how things have changed...yea so basicly i rarely use tis now im on myspace n use their blog thinger sorry xanga  but yea shits all jumbly in my head what i thought might be there isnt n shits turnin all upside down on me like every other day the board is basicly the only constant ive got right now and even thats startin to loose the therapedic effect that it once had  used ta be shit could go on in my life and if i needed an escape i just had to push that board to the nearest bank or w/e and get a good 2 hours of a clear head but now shit gets jumbly while im ridin which makes for bad skatin as well which throughly pisses me off yea so i thoguht id run into that one thing ive been searchin for, for...god kows how long but as usual i was wrong had a night of bondin with mr daniels last night and now my heads pounding idk what i mayve done online or w/e i jus know i woke up next to the comp at 6 this mornin n had a couple ims up and some into an away message so sorry to anyone whos convo with me mayve gotten cut off on the bright side i seemed to have pend down drunken lyrics that are actually half decent i havnt written anyhting in months so this is good ill leave um at the end or w/e yea so basicly fates been messin with em lately its like ill think i have somehtin goin for me and then fates just like haha asshole::SLAP:: got you again    yea so im pretty done with this so heres my drunken lyrics or w/e oyu wanna call um no title though i dont think i completed it

everytime i think im right,im wrong

everytime i hope im wrong, im right

you dont make this any easier

you dont make this any easier

i just hope im not missunderstood

we can build it

or we can tear it down

we can struggle

or we can come around

but im awake, im awake, i hope im dreamin

cus everyday is somethin diffrent

everyday and i cant take it

everyday is somethin diffrent

i took some things to clear my head

i must confess

but all it did was make me feel like lead

you dont make this any easier

you dont make this any easier

i just hope i havnt gone too far

we could build it

or we could tear it down

we could struggle

or we could come around

but im awake, im awake, i wish i was dreamin

cus everyday is somethin diffrent

everyday and i cant keep up

yea thats all i seem to have written down

Currently Listening Fresh Fruit for Rotting Vegetables By Dead Kennedys viva las vegas see related

 2 MONTHS!!!

you have no idea how happy i am with her she actually has got me trying to improve myself its like i wanna be a better guy for her or somethin i donno all i know is i cant stay mad or sad when im with her and i skate alot harder when shes around .....shes just about everything i have right now and ive never been happier

well heres a load of bullshit       ADDRESSED TO ALL SKATEBOARDERS READ AND BE APPUALED

Dear Friends,
On November 23, 2002 a tragic loss of young life happened. Neil Heddings, a well-known professional skateboarder, lost his 2 year-old son Marcus. Marcus died in his sleep from an apparent head trauma that he suffered while taking a bath the night before. There was no bruise, no big lump, and no loss of motor skills after Marty stacked in the bathtub. Neil put his child to sleep as normal only to find him lifeless the next morning. If Neil and Christine were trained medical personnel they might have known that such a small head impact could have lead to this tragic loss of life. They would have undoubtedly taken the necessary steps to save little Marty. There was no way for the parents to have known that their child had suffered a life-threatening injury.

The police who were called to the scene in the small town of San Jacinto, were quick to judge Neil and Christine as guilty criminals. The neighbors overheard and have quoted the police as saying that, "they feared for their lives as they entered the residence"- not because of a threat of violence or because there were firearms in the house, for example. Their fear was more likely caused by the ever-present stereotyping of skaters. It happens everywhere all of the time. Friends of the couple and anyone else with half of a brain, knows that they were treated unfairly from the beginning due to their appearance, i.e. tattoos, piercings, lifestyle, etc...

Those who know Neil, know without a doubt that he would never have harmed any of his children. Many remember him often saying that he "wanted more children" and "wanted to have a big family". Some have also observed that he moved away from the city-- not only to start his own skateboard company, but also to get away from the drama and ill effects that the city life might have on his children.

The detectives who started the investigation immediately looked at Neil and his girlfriend Christine, as suspects for murder. California Protective Services were instantly called and they took action immediately. Christine's child Joey, was taken into protective custody along with Neil and Christine's newborn son, Buddy. Four months later, Neil and Christine were arrested for the premeditated murder of Marcus. Premeditated!?!?! Craziness..... there is no way that Neil and Christine made some elaborate plan to kill Marty. Neil and Christine were in the midst of making their dreams come true. ROLLMODEL Skateboards was in business with orders for product coming in from around the globe.

The saddest fact of this case remains that little Marcus died that night. He was a sweet little angel that was taken from this world much too early. Marcus is in heaven now but we are all here, in good health and we have the ability to help make this unfair accusation to be seen for what it really is-an unjust, poorly thought-out, bunch of B.S. We need to stand strong by our friends' side and do whatever it takes to help free them. Being detained unjustly is no way for Neil and Christine to try to cope with the loss of one of their children. Marty's loss will weigh heavy in their hearts and minds forever but the longer they stay locked up in Riverside County Jail, the less chance they will have to put their lives back in order for the rest of their family.

Neil Heddings and Christine were arrested but were not charged for 16 days due to lack of evidence pointing to premeditated murder. The arraignment had to be postponed three times as the D.A. and P.A. fumbled around trying to come up with some proof that they had just cause to arrest them for Murder I. Let's raise money to show our support for Neil and Pinky! They are innocent of any wrong-doing. They need your support through this tragedy. We are raising money for their legal defense. Please help support this cause.
PEACE,

i have but one thing to say to this

FREE NEIL HEDDINGS!

Currently Listening Cuts From the Crypt By The Misfits rise above see related

wow alotta shits happend to em in the past week and i really dont feel like typing it all if you know about it you know i was a dumbass if not fuck off oyu dont need to know but anyway

YESTERDAY WAS ME N LINDZ 1 MONTH!!!!  i couldnt be happier i can be having the worst day but when i see her i cant help but smile even thinkin about her makes me smile well i could sit here for hours and type about how my girlfriend is amazing but garman should be here any second so we can go skate so im outta here